if only

2006-08-06T16:42:00.000+08:00

hey ladies, i'v shifted.
(:

http://tarantulasinmyshoes.blogspot.com/

good day,

2006-08-05T16:03:00.000+08:00

good night,

2006-08-05T01:38:00.000+08:00

" when i fall in love,

i'll take my time"

2006-08-04T16:21:00.000+08:00

something is wrong with me.
my body is in sucha bad condition.

2006-08-04T00:19:00.000+08:00

zouk last night,
was so much fun.

off to school after an hour of sleep.

all so high today,
school was a playground.

2006-08-03T22:43:00.000+08:00

2006-08-03T07:18:00.000+08:00

tarantulas in my shoe.

with blood that runs so cold in these wounds.
i tried,
and it's not my intention to seek fear.
no, i didn't had to ask the obvious,
actions speak louder than words.
such a cruel place,
and i'm only here to lose.
someone shelter me from this again,
dedicated till the end.

o fuck o fuck o fuck,
my eyes are still so swollen and watery,
my mouth still taste of alcohol, and with
my mind, lost somewhere else,
i'v to go to school.

2006-08-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

1 month away from e holidays,
2 weeks away from e study week,
and
3 weeks away from e horror.

o, i hope i will survive.

can't u see?
i'm tryna save me from myself.

2006-07-31T10:20:00.000+08:00

the lakehouse.
it was not a cheap romantic flick,
it was a beautiful movie
such deep, patient and profound love.
catch it with your significant other!

monday blues, monday blues, monday blues.

2006-07-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

this woman took 2564648465hours to choose a pair of glasses,

and
we finally caught e lakehouse,
ended up crying.
HAHA.

2006-07-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

poor friend of mine, going through a heart break,

♥ Grouchy Bear. says:
it feels so painful tht all i put in again and again only showed it's null in the end

♥ Grouchy Bear. says:
why do humans have to try and try

♥ Grouchy Bear. says:
and in the end hurt themselves

♥ Grouchy Bear. says:
is it always the case someone have to feel more upset in a r/s

♥ Grouchy Bear. says:
is it tht there's always someone tht not care

♥ Grouchy Bear. says:
is it always so hard to leave a love jsut bcos we put in so much.

♥ Grouchy Bear. says:
it's not appreciated at all.

♥ Grouchy Bear. says:
all the things i did

♥ Grouchy Bear. says:
all the changes i tried

♥ Grouchy Bear. says:
it's for nothing

♥ Grouchy Bear. says:
love was nvr meant to be real.

-
and i thought bout u,
how deep is your love baby?

I WANA WATCH THE LAKEHOUSE!

2006-07-28T22:33:00.000+08:00

my tea's gone cold.

tired tired tired.
i wana watch e lake house..............................................!

2006-07-27T12:18:00.000+08:00

i hate deadlines, like totally.
especially when u'v got the date wrong.

she's gone missing.

2006-07-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

feeling so rotten,
i hope it'l all be over soon.

):

thanks for putting up with all my whining baby.

the 25th,

I'm carrying your heart in mine,
for good.

2006-07-23T20:51:00.000+08:00

always will,
she said.
(:

2006-07-23T02:29:00.000+08:00

it's this feeling that i'm getting now.
and i don't like it,
at all.

good night.

2006-07-22T16:21:00.000+08:00

the burn mark is 4.5 by 1cm.
o good bye, my beautiful leg.
):

2006-07-21T00:47:00.000+08:00

i love u stupid woman,

2006-07-19T21:48:00.000+08:00

best friend, its been so long.

the hot chocolate from starbucks,
the medicine-sessions in bangkok,
the no-more-cigg-for-u day,
the nail polish day,
the paid cab rides,
the french toasts and hotdogs,
the ...,

Who gave me beer when I was thirsty,
And who gave me twenty-five dollars to hold.

2006-07-18T09:38:00.000+08:00

few days back, a guy followed me into the ladies in harbourfront.
do i look like a guy or was he just plain pervertic?

2006-07-17T09:43:00.000+08:00

this is out to von,

all things scripted,
and u know this ain't the best for u.
is it any wonder u'r tired?
is it any wonder why u feel uptight?
is it any wonder u don't know what's right?
and when sometimes u get the feeling
that u'r stranded in the wrong time, i'l be here for u.

2006-07-14T19:01:00.000+08:00

i wish every other day would be like today, cos i was o-so-goddamn early for school, i finished all my lab work, i was awake throughout the bus rides, i went to the library to borrow books on flash with hamster(o what the fuck, i think the school forgot to include that flash module for me), i went for an interview for sub-comm(i was dragged into it la!) and and and, guess what? i merely had like four hours of sleep the night before!

:D

but where's my monkey darling?! boohoo.

i'm deprived of chunky monkey, chunky monkey, peanut butter m&m's, chunky monkey, banana milkshake, chunky monkey and chunky monkey ):

Babble, Babble, Bitch, Bitch,
Rebel, Rebel, Party, Party,
Sex, sex, sex.

2006-07-13T04:25:00.000+08:00

OMG.
somebody save me!
its already half past four in the morning
and i'm still not tired.
i'm hungry and hungry and hungry.
boo.

2006-07-12T19:33:00.000+08:00

i don't wana stay in singapore anymore!

can't smoke here, cant smoke there.
prices increased, non-smoking area increased.

no cab here, no cab there.
rates increased, waiting time increased.

):

find out more bout me here!

happy afternoons.

2006-07-11T22:48:00.000+08:00

the surface piercing on my wrist is rejecting,
boo hoo.
):

Sweetest is the taste from your lips,

2006-07-09T22:03:00.000+08:00

lazy weekend, just u and me.

: "tell von that ur a very lucky girl"

: "why?"

: "cos i cooked for u"

(:

The only one I truly call mine.

2006-07-08T14:04:00.000+08:00

litter bug.
just a few minutes ago, i got screwed by my mum cos i happily disposed my cola can out of the window. but hey, i'm still trying to recover from my goldfish state cos i finished all the cola in the house this morning when i got back from zouk. I NEED FOOD NOW!!! crap, it still feels like holiday to me. and it's just like seven weeks to exam, with tonnes of project submissions in between. BOO. i hate programming. :(

someday, we'l be watching sunsets on our porch.

2006-07-07T21:35:00.000+08:00

friday afternoon class.
tell me, when did they started using these words:
gays, roman robes, one night stand, bra and pipes
in JAVA programming??!!

i could spend my life in this sweet surrender.

2006-07-06T17:55:00.000+08:00

Girlfriend,
You make my head start spinning around.

world cup championship,
France or Italy for u?

2006-07-03T21:06:00.000+08:00

The worst kind of hypocrisy comes from people in authority,
cause they are the ones who should be leading by example,
both ethically and morally.
If the front of the train is on the wrong track,
the rest of the train is sure to follow.

sheesh.

thinking bout the past makes me cherish the present even more.

2006-07-02T03:35:00.000+08:00

i'm bad at remembering names, and people.

it's half past three in the morning,
and England just LOST.
haha, haha, haha.

what spell didst thou cast on me?
ilu.

2006-07-01T14:02:00.000+08:00

i love waking up to your kisses,

and i don't really like your cat anymore.

2006-06-30T01:39:00.000+08:00

my wrist hurts.
POUTS.

2006-06-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

i'm so damn pissed now cos i accidently deleted a long entry
which i wanted to publish, not once, but twice!
wth.
i don't wana type anymore as for now.
so, i'm just here to tell that i hate school and i'v got the cutest and whiniest girlfriend around and,
i'm o so in love. (:

sheryl baby,
I love how loving you makes me feel and
I love how loving you feels so real.
<3

2006-06-26T09:10:00.000+08:00

random pictures from the holiday.

zouk.

my chunky monkey, yes, mine.

back to school for now,
W H I N E S .

i'm addicted,
to you.

2006-06-24T12:40:00.000+08:00

Heaven knows,
I'm head over heels and it shows.

and i wished that the night wouldn't have ended.

, chubb hubb.

2006-06-23T01:01:00.000+08:00

I THINK AM GOING THROUGH DEPRESSION NOW.
cos,
i took so many nicey photos in sentosa and realised that the memory card was in my laptop.
so? no photos!
booo. no photos.
am still waiting for my bangkok photos! RAH.
the sun was great today. loveeeeee it.
we had sakae buffet in bikinis! LOL.
finally had my chunky in gardens. YUM YUM pretty face! thank u!

happy birthday von,
i hope u would'nt grow up.
(:
grins.

chunky monkey chunky monkey.

2006-06-22T02:48:00.000+08:00

it was town today wih lovely,
i had my ice cream,
i watched she's the man,
and i had my nydc ball ball drink with rainbow-whatever-i-dunno-what-is-it-called.

i need a longer holiday!
boo.

got my eyes on you.

2006-06-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

boo. we'r back!
more photos next entry alright.
lazy. aha.

2006-06-16T02:05:00.000+08:00

BANGKOK.

PHOTOS PHOTOS update when i'm back alright?

LOVE LOVE
(:

2006-06-13T00:56:00.000+08:00

so many things to be done,
so little time left.

You know me,
I used to get caught up in everyday life.
Tried to make it through my day,

so I could sleep at night.

it all happened so fast,
and all gone, too soon.

BOO! whatever.

i cant wait, sawadeeka!
till then, take care darlings.
(:

2006-06-11T13:26:00.000+08:00

it was gardens yesterday.
and i finally went down to work after like 3478274324 days!

world cup madness, world cup madness.
i like.
laughs.

this is jerome, she's my bestie, my schoolmate, and my groupmate!

2006-06-09T15:08:00.000+08:00

the air is getting cold in here.
I'v got to make this life make sense,
i don't know how.

so so so , in love with
here without u, 3 doors down.

2006-06-09T11:47:00.000+08:00

starfucks,

we spent the week at parkway.
a week of fun, tears(term test la!) and laughter.
haha. dramatic, we'v contributed to the air and noise pollution.
i'v been having my fun,and these happy days are here to stay.
my mind tells me maybe, maybe.
and boo, this isn't fair, 1 hour of sun = 4 painful sun burnt cleavage days. ):
FUCK. deadlines are drawing near again. hello, moonlight and latte.

just as when i thought i could stand on my own,

now, look what you'v done.

2006-06-07T22:41:00.000+08:00

hypnotized.

the holidays are here.
the getaway.
(:

2006-06-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

holidays.
yay, like finally.

we'r going off to candy empire!
but when?

a different fairy tale.

2006-06-06T04:19:00.000+08:00

day 2.

SOS.

HUNGRY.

one more day,
one more day!

2006-06-05T08:21:00.000+08:00

day 1.

Already looking like a goldfish with just 3 hours of sleep
and my stomach is BURNT, so fucking itchy.

boo.

2006-06-04T21:50:00.000+08:00

so many days,
so many hours,
so many moments.
in town,
at the party and
by the poolside.
all u all, my love, i love.
super lazy to upload photos. boo.
(:

Where were you while we were getting high?

2006-06-03T12:48:00.000+08:00

i hate java codings.
i hate java codings.
i hate java codings.

it's ok, just a week's more of hell.

2006-06-03T02:16:00.000+08:00

" u piglet k? "

(:

busy busy,
rush here,
rush there.

2006-06-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

10 hours in school.

and i cant believe i spent like almost 5 hours waiting,
just to sleep in a class.

it seems more like he was tryna teach himself than us.

three more days to term test, but
i'm already thinkin bout the holidays.

GRINS.

you are my sunshine, my only sunshine,
you make me happy, when skies are grey,
you never know dear, how much i love you,
so please don't take my sunshine away!

2006-06-01T14:42:00.000+08:00

it's raining.

2006-05-31T22:53:00.000+08:00

and suddenly i knew,
i can barely speak.

with just one taste of your lips.

how could it ever be so soon?

i'm falling in love , again.

2006-05-30T19:22:00.000+08:00

kiss me, i'm contagious.

2006-05-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

<3

woodpecker, woodpecker.

2006-05-27T22:23:00.000+08:00

Hows your day been?
Cause mine has taken strange and ~~ugly~~ turns.

2006-05-26T21:54:00.000+08:00

:(
that starbucks banana cream drink
ISN'T NICE AT ALL.
fuck. rah.

2006-05-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

it's wednesday!

marina sq with the darlings.
and omfg,
i'm impressed by pualynn's appetite alrights.

aww. bleach bleach more!

von causes indigestion.

sakae sakae.

bimbo.

omg. grace's getting it from von, yes?

i'm yummy, darlings. (:

whao. "bring me home!"

It's hard for me to control myself,

It's hard for me to control myself..

2006-05-23T21:37:00.000+08:00

its tuesday.again.

first lecture out of the past 3 weeks.

clear chicken soup in jack's place taste
exactly like the chicken rice soup.

while driving through a traffic junction in jln tenaga,
i accidently pressed the honk,
don't ask me how, i really dunno.
and the funny part was,
i scared an old man,
yes, bet i scared the shit outta him.
BAHAHAHAHAHA.

so beautiful.

Pictures frozen in time,
are becoming clearer.
imu.

2006-05-23T03:55:00.000+08:00

its 4 in the morning.

stoned.

waha. okay. good morning, darlings.

2006-05-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

meditation.

hello, lazy days.
i'm getting lazy, very very very very lazy nowadays.
the next two weeks' gonna be hell, for me.

burn down the school, someone.

Sunshine,
come and help me sing.

2006-05-21T13:12:00.000+08:00

Hongkong drama series.

and i'v been spending most of my time watching hk dramas on cable.
couchpotato.
not the police-catch-thief or o-tear-me-dry ,
but the laugh-your-ass-off kinda show.
hahaha, hongkeeee.

Termtest is drawing near, so are the deadlines for assignments.
i need a motivation.

what love means.

2006-05-18T22:20:00.000+08:00

" u'r grinning away like a little girl. "

and yes, i passed the test.
like finally.
(:

The Dresden Dolls is good.
go, go, check out thier music.
love it.

missed me missed me now you've got to kiss me.

2006-05-18T09:09:00.000+08:00

running, i'm running away from the inferno.

Raindrops runnin' through my veins.

and i'm going for my final thoery test for the forth time later on,
wish me luck.
i'm finishing module 2 already, whee.
(:

2006-05-17T20:04:00.000+08:00

make me whole, once again.

i don't quite understand,
and it seems like,
i'v got nothing else more to
look forward to every morning.

its sucha weird feeling i get,
to see myself laughing away,
but crying on the inside.
i hope i could run far, faraway,
and find comfort in pain.

And, baby, it's killing me,
i know it's killing you too,
e both of us tryin' to be strong.

will u take,

what's left of me?

2006-05-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

in a game of mahjong,
xy told me :

"i'm losing like mad,
but nvm, very happy.
.....
haha. Must lose happily then everybody will be happy."

omg, sweet lil' thing she is.

today's driving was horrible.
cos the instructor kept talking to me,
and he even showed me his tattoos.
like WTF la.
haha.
and i seriously hope that the sun would disappear
from the universe for good.
rain rain, please come again.

(:

maybe
i'm
amazed,
i'm amazed by myself . .
no stumbling , no crawling.

2006-05-16T20:40:00.000+08:00

2006-05-15T20:34:00.000+08:00

i wanted to meet u today,
cos i had something to say,
something to give you.
but i guess, afterall,
everything's just not meant to be;
just look at me and remember the time.

many a times i'v wondered,

and now i know.
each and everytime when something goes wrong. .

who would be standing there,
putting up with my nonsense and
telling me that everythings gonna be alright.

2006-05-14T20:31:00.000+08:00

i almost forgot how it feels like to be happy.

no more pearly pearls,
no more mustard,
no more soft soft fries,
no more not fat fat,
no more "pls stop faggin" look,
no more ... whatever.

i couldnt finish the tub of ice cream by myself.

2006-05-14T11:30:00.000+08:00

Rescue me, rescue me,
Would you stand by me and bury me?

2006-05-14T03:08:00.000+08:00

I used to make the light shine for you,
i used to.

perhaps,
it's just me.
choking on these words.
i tried getting it to u,
but i couldn't.

thanks for everything.

2006-05-13T02:27:00.000+08:00

i feel , so, whatever.

2006-05-12T16:53:00.000+08:00

unanswered questions.
dysfunctional, as i would describe myself.

and all the things i kept to myself,
i couldn't bring it up to u.
i don't know why.
we both live such different lifes.
i don't feel u anymore.

a cloudy morning i woke up to,
feeling exhausted, more than usual.

'cause i tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I never thought I'd end up here,
Never thought I'd be standing where I am.
I guess I kind of thought it would be easier than this.

it keeps spinning around,
I know that it won't stop
...
Till I step down from this for good.

2006-05-11T15:03:00.000+08:00

the sun + mozzies = hell.

POUTS.

2006-05-10T17:48:00.000+08:00

Bon Appetite!
o no.
my appetite has increased,
i'v been eating, so so so so much,
two portions for at least one of my meals.
girlfriend is happy
(i dunno y, she's been watching
me eat when it used to be the other way round)
while bestie thinks
that i'm going through the second stage of puberty(WTF?!).
i need a diet, like real soon.

lil surprises for u ,
just to see that b'ful smile on your face.

o, and i hope they'l build CANDY EMPIRE
right in front of my house.

on a magic carpet ride.

(:

2006-05-09T01:04:00.000+08:00

2006-05-08T00:57:00.000+08:00

2006-05-07T00:41:00.000+08:00

omg. click on play and watch this, darlings.
shane is soooo hot!

THIS'S DAMN FUNNY!
(:

2006-05-06T15:33:00.000+08:00

my o my.
i hate the sun. like seriously soooo much.
it seems like i'm forever in a rush, especially this week.
late late late.
40 minutes late for a class, how cool is that?
i'm feeling sooo pissy wissy now, i'd rather die of hunger than stay
out in the sun for like ten mintues.
pouty pouty pouts :(

and i think my stomach is SPOILT.
thanks to e half frozen hotdogs. RAH.

Over, sideways and under,
On a magic carpet ride..
(:

2006-05-05T19:29:00.000+08:00

all of a sudden,
i miss those days.
jumping into the pool after school,
that small pool where it's always empty,
with just the 4 of us.
stupid jokes we would crack,
o my.

i feel like a kid again.

2006-05-03T22:58:00.000+08:00

11.30pm

here goes... photos photos
(:

oooo jPEE. (:

camwhores in the library.

hilarous, i must say. HAHA.

o, i love driving.
manual is so much fun.
i'mma get my license soon,
i'l drivee babeee out for
breakfast everyday,
esp sunday mornings.

o, driving slow on sunday mornings,
i'l never wana leave...
(:

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2006-05-03T18:11:00.000+08:00

6.50pm

oooooooooo.
i'v been attending school religously,
its already the second week!
yayness. 5 more weeks to term test.
cant wait. haha.
grumpyy i'v have been...
sorryy babeeeeeee.....
i'l go learn your britney spear's song and sing for u k...
and
lets go for prata soon.. DEPRIVE DEPRIVE.
i want tehhhh peng.
(:

okay great.. photobucket is down..
photos next entry okay darlings..

i'm going for zoom zoom now!
(:

my simple kind of lovely.
There's a flower in your hair,
I'm a flower in your hair.
Oh yeah yeah.

2006-05-02T15:12:00.000+08:00

whatever.

2006-05-01T03:29:00.000+08:00

crazy, you made me over you,
yea, it's true.
with u around,
it spells nothing but happiness on my face.

121 days and counting.
my sugarcoat, will always be.
ilu,

2006-04-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

i want that too!

2006-04-27T22:35:00.000+08:00

my rosy cheeks - the weather or your presence?

try as they may,
they could never define,
whats being said between your heart and mine.

that smile on your face.

mwah mwah.

2006-04-25T22:15:00.000+08:00

oooo.
i love school.
like SO VERY MUCH.
as usual,
i'l have to rush to class every morning.
HELP.

dance dance, we'r falling apart to halftime.

2006-04-24T01:13:00.000+08:00

surprise surprise,

Even heroes know when to be scared.

2006-04-23T16:56:00.000+08:00

a tired and battered fighter, i am.

the past, we talked about.
we reminised.
the very first banana walnut ice cream,
somehow, tasted so good.
i still rmb the taste, so distinctly.

thank u. (:

2006-04-22T02:56:00.000+08:00

She says she's no good with words but I'm worse.

ee yer. school school school.

the long bus rides.

2006-04-21T00:47:00.000+08:00

if it all falls apart.

it was town today.
fish & co for lunch, and i love this drink.
what's the name again? i forgot.
):

o yea, von, the BLONDE.lol.

2006-04-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

~charr rose.with a thorn. says:
I LOVE CONNIE

~charr rose.with a thorn. says:
TO BITS N PIECES

haha. the truth is out. like finally.
charr is sickening.

just for laughs. (:

o anyway, was browsing through my albums
and here's some good old' times.
(:

ancient uh?

we'r all grown ups now.

u evol i.

2006-04-18T17:54:00.000+08:00

friends.
the sweetest things on earth.
thanks for being here for me
each and almost every other time.
jp, thanks.
and grace, imissu, coffee soon.
(:

we'll make things work.

2006-04-17T18:57:00.000+08:00

Dance, Dance
We're falling apart to half time
Dance, Dance
And these are the lives you'd love to lead
Dance, this is the way they'd love
If they knew how misery loved me.

alcohol. cigarettes.
thats what it's all about.

2006-04-16T15:37:00.000+08:00

once blinded.

lie to me,
tell me a story so beautiful.

sa rang hae yo, zhi dui ni shuo.

2006-04-15T13:26:00.001+08:00

and i,
i don't wana speak these words.
Cause i,
i don't want to make things any worse.

supressed emotions.
killing me softly.

Can you hear me?

Trembling,
hold me now.
I'm torn between silence and violent expression,
tired of believing everyone wants to care.

go away.

damnit. okay, i'l stop.
pictures pictures for u.

2006-04-15T02:21:00.000+08:00

joy comes in the morning time for me.
what bout u?

2006-04-14T02:31:00.000+08:00

That may be all I need,
In darkness she is all I see..
Come and rest your bones with me,
Driving slow on Sunday morning,
And I never want to leave..

breakfast sessions i need.
anyone?
(:

2006-04-13T12:32:00.000+08:00

1.39pm

'Cause you have turned my world around.
Sa Rang Hae Yo.

sometimes it really set me thinking
bout people around me.
friends, who can't be trusted at all;
only a handful though.
friends. tell me about it.
o well, life's like a masquerade party uh?
and the holiday is coming to an end with just a blink of an eye.
pouts.
anyway i failed my final thoery test again.
haha. you must be thinking.
the 3rd TIME. omfg.
and so, its 2 more weeks,
rmb to ask me to study pretty please!

thank u for putting up with my mustard obssession
and giving me all e duper soft fries.
(:

a reason to wake up every morning.